Soliloquy

*Groan* I am soooo tired! It’s as though no matter how much zzzz I get, it’s never enough. I guess I’m having a burnout with the long working hours I’ve been putting at work for the past couple of weeks! Yesterday night, I fell asleep while watching a dvd and it was only 10 plus! Hmmm, and I couldn’t even wake up this morning.

I went for a massage on Mon night after work as I was having neck and shoulder pain, prob due to the position that I was sitting facing the pc. Anyways, I ended up getting a foot massage as well since I was feeling paranoid about having some unknown disease or wat-nots lurking inside my body system with the amount of junk and caffeine that I’m pumping into my body due to stress. Also, I have been procrastinating on my annual medical check-up so…The masseuse spoke to me in Mandarin as she’s from China and I reply (minimally) in my halting Mandarin. I had the neck and shoulder massage lying face down on the bed. My gawd, it felt like I was a pillow being pummeled to the ground, which obviously mean I had a lot of stress and tension on my shoulders!!

I reckon writing in a way is rather therapeutic to me as it allows me to ‘purge’ all my thoughts and ill-feelings onto something since I’m too tired to call anybody to pour my sorrows….i’m feeling kinda depressed today as I was supposed to be on leave tomorrow to prep myself for the hunt this Saturday but since ‘something’ popped up in work, looks like I need to cancel my leave….boo-hoo-hoo…and I was so looking forward to a little R & R…

Woe is with me
Mired in self-pity and sorrows
How can this be?
When it’s such a bitter pill to swallow

I write this poem to weep my grief
And hope that it’ll wipe away my misery
Wish it’s just a phase passing in brief
Cos this is getting really dreary!